I have been a certified therapeutic music entertainer since 2011. I have sung in nursing homes and senior centers on a regular weekly or monthly basis since 2005.
Due to Covid-19, I haven't performed musically since February 2020. Stupid Covid-19.
I haven't been playing much guitar either this past 3 months. I pick one up most every day, but only play for a few minutes then put it back on the rack or back in its' case.
Not having an audience to sing to, to engage with, is hitting pretty hard. I love to perform. I love to get people singing. I've confessed that I am not the greatest singer or guitar player. I'm probably in the "dime -a-dozen" category regarding both. However, I can get other people to sing! Call it a gift. I've been a song leader in several churches and for several groups. I was the featured singer in a band for almost 10 years, because I could get the others in the band to sing with me, as well as people in the audience.
And now, I don't have an audience. Well, more specifically . . . I don't have a live audience.
I guess this can all relate to my being a preacher as well. I truly miss the engagement of the people in the congregation when I preach. Preaching to a camera is not the same.
I'm in a spot of sorts. I need to work through this. The other day I decided to sell all my guitars. I quickly gave my self a symbolic "slap-in-the-face" and sternly told my inner child to "get-a-hold-of-yourself."
Yep . . . I need to process this, and I need to do it now.
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